If you could see me now

I am fucking tired. Go away everyone goodnight.

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Sorry for the angsty post earlier on guys, guess i was too hungry. Hmmm apart from juggling schoolwork, tests,  late night trainings and ballet, I’ve been doing nothing. Okay it’s bad enough already :/ Training just now was good, ‘cept for the slap right smack on my head by my rope haha. Okay I know I’m being really weird but I’m gonna stop here. GOODNIGHT.

(When I still had bangs)

Hi it’s the fourth week of school and it’s friday tomorrow! Miss Yiwen that facil alot but she’ll be back in class tomorrow Hmm, so the four days in school this week were absolute hell. Crazy amount of tutorials and two tests to study for (one really bad thing about being an art student is the memorizing of content ugh) This week is finally coming to an end omg I’m so drained. Massive traffic jam this morning and I was dozing off in the car. HAHA papa was cursing non-stop and i merely managed some occasional “yeah…” without opening my eyes. Last mass PE session today and it was alright. Math remedial was really funny with Ms Yoong and May hahaha sometimes i really think I’m hopeless but oh well. Maybe I just have to live with the fact that my brain can’t deal with numbers. Or diagrams. Why is it that it’s only Feb (omg it’s alr feb?!?!?) and i feel kinda breathless already!

Okay academic issues aside, on a more superficial note, I HAVENT BEEN SHOPPING SINCE THE NEW YEAR! WTF is this some kind of a joke I’m leading such a mundane life. No Cny stuff no nothing. Okay i should just resign to fate already, I’ll endure another year and it will all be worth it. (I hope) Its CNY break after next week! Yay to a well-deserved break!

Training tomorrow! Bye everyone!

It’s 10.40pm now and i’m finally home from training. Had History test just now and it was uh alright? I don’t know I wrote really little and my content knowledge’s like crap and i just cross-reference all the way! Hmm but luckily my face value’s the same as most of the people. Okay i’m going to sleep soon project meeting at Tiara’s place tomorrow (EAST OMG) and class on sunday and i need to study for two tests and i haven’t even started on anything and i have truckloads of tutorials. Sorry barely coherent now fatigue’s kicking in. BYE!!!!!!!!!

2nd weekend…

since school reopened. This week was relatively better than the first because… well it wasn’t as tiring. I don’t know why because the workload seems heavier (what’s with all the SBQs…) and the teachers are getting more demanding? (Miss yoong kept complaining about us) I’m really clueless about Math. Okay getting slightly better at Differential but I’m still really bad at vectors. Or integration. I think i’m in deep shit because CA is coming up. Early Feb i think, and it’s already almost the end of Jan. (Y)

Spent my saturday morning and afternoon writing essays. (what a life) Had dinner with Angela just now hahaha she’s so absent minded she actually left her present and two textbooks that cost 100plus at Bakerzin! We got it back though. Her forgetfulness is contagious i swear. Had our dinner at KFC and I actually ordered extra cheese without even realising we didn’t get any fries. Then we decided to take away the cheese (sorry abit cheapskate) but we forgot to! HMMMMMMM.

Okay it’s week 3 after tomorrow, I will get by.

About you

I dreamt of you yesterday and woke up this morning only to find that all the things you said to me happened in my head. Sometimes it’ll take me all my strength to not think about you. It’s too hard. I hate to deal with this kinda thing right now because it isn’t exactly on my to-do list but it just comes and… and i have no idea how to handle it. Aiya just stop it already. I’ll move on.

Okay now it’s a different matter altogether. I hate having things planned out nicely and screwing them last minute! Seriously, can things just get better already?! For pete’s sake it’s 16january, 16 days into a new year and this is what i’m getting?!

Freaking stayed at home for the entire day and I’ve only completed one SBQ and another essay. I should stop procrastinating and get my act together. The world does not, and will never revolve around you SimLin.

First week,

to put it simply, was hell. 

It’s been a crazy week and i’m trying to stop whining about how freaking exhausted i am. It’s like, on the very first day of school, we had classes all the way from 8am to 4pm without any breaks in between! Could’ve killed us if not for the lifesaver tuna+egg sandwich Amy bought for us. Then on that very same day, we had rehearsal from 5pm to 7pm. Then the next day was open house. Had training on Wed so i reached home at 10.45pm?! (Too tired to deal with essays so went to sleep without doing anything) Thursday there were lessons till 4.30pm and today there was training again so I just reached home.

I don’t even know why i have the strength now to sit infront of my laptop and move my fingers. Every teacher that walked into our class told us we’re J2s already and if we don’t prepare now we’ll be committing suicide so I’m hoping i have the strength to pull through (what’s with all the stuff that’s happening) I think i need help for my math because I’m so bad at it. ASEAN is so much easier compared to the United Nations.

Okay i’m going off goodnight have a great weekend

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Hi Yiwen thanks alot for the Xmas present! Love it and i won’t break it

p.s just woke up so i’m still kinda in a daze… + my hair’s super messy :/

Numbers

1. I’m in deep trouble. Go figure.
2. Been pissed by many random people because of their stupidity (sorry it’s not related to academics so you can’t say the same for me)
3. Today my knees died on me after three days of gym and a day of ballet - resulted in a bad fall
4. We’re not talking anymore. Like i care.
5. My timetable. is. horrifying. and. i. am. terribly. pissed.
6. Dreading Mass PE… ALOT.
7. Open house’s on tuesday and i hope my ball doesn’t fly everywhere
8.  I miss Taiwan
9. I miss the holiday…
10. I cannot believe I’m gonna take my Alevel ten months later wtf it’s like i just did my Olevel?!

Lately

much has happened. And i don’t want to remind myself about what’s coming my way because right now i just want to escape. I know it’s not going to help because things doesn’t work out by themselves. Sigh, I really hate growing up because when you do, you’ll grow to look at things from a more realistic point of view instead of believing that things will miraculously change for the better. They don’t.

My new baby

Like finally after three years of using my very laupok compaq laptop full of problems, my dad got a sony vaio. And it’s pink! HAHAHA. One day i’ll drive my brother mad with my pink obsession. Last year, my brother wanted to get an Ipod Nano and he asked me what colour he should get, so i just insisted on pink! He really got pink HAHAHA. But that shade of pink is darker,  so it’s not that feminine afterall.

Sorry for my hugeass face HAHA. Okay that’s about it! It’s one more week before school reopens, HAVE TO make full use of my one last week before I drown (sea of books) Gym in school and BBQ tomorrow, rehearsal on Tues, Training on wed and fri ughhhh. My math is undone because I’m already stuck at the first question and it’s only SLE?!?! Wtv, enough rants.

2010’s treating me well thus far

Anyway I’ve been rushing to finish the previous post yesterday I didn’t have enough time to write a thought-provoking, reflective entry to end the year:( Aiya it’s okay, today’s the first day of 2010! Doesn’t defeat the purpose right?

Hmm.. 2009’s been relatively smooth-sailing. Received my Olevel result, went to a new school, made new friends, joined Gymnastics, did my ballet exam, flew to Hk, failed my mids so badly I cried to my mom for 1 hour, didn’t exactly celebrate my birthday because it was a school+gym+ballet day but nevertheless thankful, studied the hardest in my whole ten years of education for Promotionals, prepared for and went for Oral presentation even though i stuttered so badly (ugh), flew to TW and back.

2009 wasn’t exactly hard to get by, just difficult. Last year I drifted away from most secondary school friends, such as Nat and Elaine and majority of my secondary 4 classmates. But grew surprisingly close to Doreen and Peiwen even though we’re in different schools already. Spent most of the time in school with Yiwen because we share the same breaks. I love her so much! Even though she’s forever laughing at my lack of knowledge regarding current affairs and insist that i’m a joke (which i’m not!) 1T07 is like the best class! With people like Tiara, Stace, Amethyst, Suat, May, Amanda, Kai, Nick, Ruizhi etc. Such a joy to be with Joined Gym and maybe because we’re a small team, we’re united. Gym mates are also really fun to be with. They make trainings so much easier.

Didn’t have any issues with family. Instead i really ought to thank my parents because I owe them so much. Thankyou Papa for driving me to school everyday unconditionally because i gave up on 966 (can never squeeze up the bus) and mummy for acceding to my demanding requests every now and then. No fights with GorGor because he enlisted. And i’m so happy that he matured quite abit, we can even hold a proper conversation now! With no “you stupid or what” in between. So thankful for my family, really.

In 2010 i hope to be a better person. Better in all aspects.

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Bought a book yesterday! Forgot to mention it in my pevious post hehe. It’s “Message in a bottle” by Nicholas Sparks, the author who wrote “A walk to remember” and “The notebook”. Haven’t had the chance to read it but i think it’ll be good. HAHA.